181209

Going off soon for a weeks vacation to Malaysia.
Emotions still running deep but this trip will surely made me reflect on things and clear my mind.

A week's vacation will turn you around by alot this I tell you.
nothing much to say just relaxing my mind after all this going on dates already since I have broken up even how much I wanna forget but i can't.
Its a crazy thing to be with her all the times even though its short


Hey I'm still young got a whole time for me ahead.

Why am I here

Why have friends when they masked themselves in front of you but act differently when you are not around.
Why have a DAD when he leaves your family for another women.
When have Girlfriends when in the end you get ditched...
The main question is why am I here when I'm hated by others and a burden to people.
Shouldn't I just not been born and not lived in this place where society is cruel to you and others who they think don't deserve a place,who they think they are the greatest,who they think they can decide who to be hate,loved or befriends with..........Who are they???


I rather be left alone and not be disturb I've been alone since the day i was born and will always be..
you won't be disturb but you will be feared....better than being dissed

111209

Time to write
Damn tiring day today went to school for the first time NIFM
damn unlucky well studied up for marketing till late night then customize my toolbar for my firefox so far it looks nice I like it.

The day went by as per normal math lesson was a killer as the relieve faci was like F*%K no point talking about it pain in the class ASS.
head from someone that Nadiah cried while talking......about some personal stuff
I don't like to see any girls cry cause its like my nature its so unsightly and not a good thing.

Still miss her but one time is passing past and I have to move on I don't care what people say just gotta move on......A break time a break time but life have to go on.I hope Nadiah will be ok and settle her things fast.


I can agree with the people that Boys have Ego that is over their head and yes i admit my mistakes I will correct it.
There is such thing as chances that gives people the opportunity to change for the better and not making a harsh decision but what happens just leave it and look forward.

In every relationships Not one party is at wrong BUT both is in the wrong find the cause of it and try to solve it not letting it go to make things easy.

What a hassle

Seems that from now on I will be solo.
Flying with one half a set of wings the other has gone now using prostatic wings.
My job has been done nothing more I can do and my life is lonely again like always.


Well today is very tiring cause of yesterday's training I got nothing much to say oh yea Grades has finally came out but I wasn't happy with all of them as I haven't done well. Here are the results 2E's one D and one D+ that is bad but my daily grades will hopefully be able to save me.Have to get 2.0 for GPA in order to be able to compete in canoe.

Can't wait for next year as I heard that my course DSLM will be moving to SOH as we are more to management course then sports.

Well gotta study now for marketing tomorrow if not I will get worst grades than what I did today.

Over and Again

Imagine doing things again and again well that is what canoe is all about.
Doing the same routine over and again till you are sick of it.
at least today i did went and do a K1 boat can balance but still a bit bad on the strokes.
Need to buckle up fast cause marathon is just a month away and training hard is what its all about.


Time to get my potential going and showing them that the last Malay standing in canoe can be the best and not just a typical mat rep loser relaxing one corner.
Show what I'm made off and not turn back.



Ok my mom saw the pic of nadiah and asked me whether she is a guy.....well I know she is boyish but its my type its what the heart that matters not the physical features.Gotta sleep now tmr there is training again.

011209

Time passes by fast and its the week 9
doing web & new media today about a crime prevention thing and the whole class suppose to do a blog about it.
Not an exciting thing and i didn't enjoy it.
Check out my grades and so far they are good except that I need to buck up on some module to get back my grades if not I would have to retake them which I don't want to.

After school did the business plan with my classmates and finally all things are being put up.
Went training alone after wards.....oh yea my canoe team has to vote for the new up coming captain and I hope its not me as I not responsible enough.....NO WAY.


Tomorrow is the elevator pitch which I have to do for the business plan presenting close to 100 people in a lecture theater. Not nervous at all if chosen and nothing nervous to be of. Just a presentation of the business summary to the audience they like it just let them have a say to it haha....


Gotta go now have to be well dress and smartly dress plus waking up early so won't fall asleep during other presentation.