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Going off soon for a weeks vacation to Malaysia.
Emotions still running deep but this trip will surely made me reflect on things and clear my mind.

A week's vacation will turn you around by alot this I tell you.
nothing much to say just relaxing my mind after all this going on dates already since I have broken up even how much I wanna forget but i can't.
Its a crazy thing to be with her all the times even though its short


Hey I'm still young got a whole time for me ahead.

Why am I here

Why have friends when they masked themselves in front of you but act differently when you are not around.
Why have a DAD when he leaves your family for another women.
When have Girlfriends when in the end you get ditched...
The main question is why am I here when I'm hated by others and a burden to people.
Shouldn't I just not been born and not lived in this place where society is cruel to you and others who they think don't deserve a place,who they think they are the greatest,who they think they can decide who to be hate,loved or befriends with..........Who are they???


I rather be left alone and not be disturb I've been alone since the day i was born and will always be..
you won't be disturb but you will be feared....better than being dissed

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Time to write
Damn tiring day today went to school for the first time NIFM
damn unlucky well studied up for marketing till late night then customize my toolbar for my firefox so far it looks nice I like it.

The day went by as per normal math lesson was a killer as the relieve faci was like F*%K no point talking about it pain in the class ASS.
head from someone that Nadiah cried while talking......about some personal stuff
I don't like to see any girls cry cause its like my nature its so unsightly and not a good thing.

Still miss her but one time is passing past and I have to move on I don't care what people say just gotta move on......A break time a break time but life have to go on.I hope Nadiah will be ok and settle her things fast.


I can agree with the people that Boys have Ego that is over their head and yes i admit my mistakes I will correct it.
There is such thing as chances that gives people the opportunity to change for the better and not making a harsh decision but what happens just leave it and look forward.

In every relationships Not one party is at wrong BUT both is in the wrong find the cause of it and try to solve it not letting it go to make things easy.

What a hassle

Seems that from now on I will be solo.
Flying with one half a set of wings the other has gone now using prostatic wings.
My job has been done nothing more I can do and my life is lonely again like always.


Well today is very tiring cause of yesterday's training I got nothing much to say oh yea Grades has finally came out but I wasn't happy with all of them as I haven't done well. Here are the results 2E's one D and one D+ that is bad but my daily grades will hopefully be able to save me.Have to get 2.0 for GPA in order to be able to compete in canoe.

Can't wait for next year as I heard that my course DSLM will be moving to SOH as we are more to management course then sports.

Well gotta study now for marketing tomorrow if not I will get worst grades than what I did today.

Over and Again

Imagine doing things again and again well that is what canoe is all about.
Doing the same routine over and again till you are sick of it.
at least today i did went and do a K1 boat can balance but still a bit bad on the strokes.
Need to buckle up fast cause marathon is just a month away and training hard is what its all about.


Time to get my potential going and showing them that the last Malay standing in canoe can be the best and not just a typical mat rep loser relaxing one corner.
Show what I'm made off and not turn back.



Ok my mom saw the pic of nadiah and asked me whether she is a guy.....well I know she is boyish but its my type its what the heart that matters not the physical features.Gotta sleep now tmr there is training again.

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Time passes by fast and its the week 9
doing web & new media today about a crime prevention thing and the whole class suppose to do a blog about it.
Not an exciting thing and i didn't enjoy it.
Check out my grades and so far they are good except that I need to buck up on some module to get back my grades if not I would have to retake them which I don't want to.

After school did the business plan with my classmates and finally all things are being put up.
Went training alone after wards.....oh yea my canoe team has to vote for the new up coming captain and I hope its not me as I not responsible enough.....NO WAY.


Tomorrow is the elevator pitch which I have to do for the business plan presenting close to 100 people in a lecture theater. Not nervous at all if chosen and nothing nervous to be of. Just a presentation of the business summary to the audience they like it just let them have a say to it haha....


Gotta go now have to be well dress and smartly dress plus waking up early so won't fall asleep during other presentation.

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The result's are second for both the male and female division for POLITE
they did their all and they are all deserve the second.
It's time for the juniors to start picking up where the seniors left us.


Next few weeks and months and years to come is not gonna be an easy task for us as this is just the beginning....the main coach Kai Yang is back and tough training is up ahead.
Even though its rest time for all I will train my own and I make sure that I get that paddle of my own.

I'm the only race left in juniors so i won't give up you can say whatever you want I am just gonna stay my mind is set in such a way once I go for something I won' stop halfway its not right.

Nothing to prove just challenging myself to the limits. I may start slow but doesn't mean I can't excel. Time is just what people need.

Boring

I'm bored seriously bored
as in the only life I have now is canoe canoe canoe
some friends of mine can say I don't have a life.
Are you crazy??All the time canoe what will you gain.
i say to them its the lesson thought and knowledge earn that you will gain....
Lose out in Friends or Lose out in Life


Formal day pictures are not uploaded yet all the time busy with canoe and my GF so much time is occupied wanna have that one day free time to just be with my GF.
today is the most tiring day i had one whole day in Macrithie to train but it was fun trying to get into Raptor again but this time capsize like never before maybe its not my day......

OK time to get to work uploading the formal photos that my friends have been dying of ZOAN hahahaha you crash my lappy.......=)

LOVE

Love comes in many definition depending on a person's perception
sometimes they are butterflies in your stomach
others say they are the ones that can change you to become a better person.


From my point of view they can't be describe in words
love is a complicated word that meets us to our other half,that gives us hope when there isn't any left,made us change to a new person.

even by a single look to a female love can be develop its doesn't know age nor gender.
but one flaw love made is the pain of it getting shattered into tiny pieces.
the point where you stand so high to almost reaching your goals you drop to the very bottom where you start.

But love made you realise that it is the experience that made us a stronger person and learning from our flaws and making it better for the next time.


Have I found my LOVE???
Yes I have
But will I make it through???
that only I and my partner has the answer

Have you found your LOVE???
Can you make it through???
Ask yourself this question

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Hi peps long time since i start blogging okok
just finish the two day student facilitation.
IT was fun fun fun wah so much excitement.
Here are the pics for the last day of facilitation ahaha later waiting for her for her synergy thingy
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15 th november coastal clean-up

Hahha yesterday so damn tired and it was the first coastal clean-up hha and it was best and dirty.
lots of stupid things are there its really not what we really want in a beach.
Guys pls do not throw the rubbish in the sea pls if not our beach will be contaminated.



After the clean-up we went to eat packet food and showered took some random and funny photos of my canoe mates ahha damn random unexpected one's
Our free lunch
On the way back home we had to walk like a long distances a very long while took us around 15 mins damn tiring.Oh yea these thing happen upon reaching bus stop.Wen Da went up to a bungalow house and suddenly a Big dog just pops out and BARK, he was stunned,jumped onto Thomas and grip tight onto his hand haha like one GAY dude haha. Damn funny haha well erm this is some of the pics of the day.
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Esmond with Panda Bear

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Today i have been kinda sad my girl talk to me and thinks that things are fast moving.
And yes it is for we got together kinda fast but we can work it slow.
I care bout her and i know she does too we talked kinda short and she is sad right now cause her laptop just crash and i understand all I can do now is support her and i will take it slow


after the UT test we played soccer with my old classmates haha i scored a classic goal.
I became tired and had no more energy to actually make a move and i was like losing the ball always hhaa my girl went home cause of the rain which will make her sick

Truly saying i care for her and I'm now more emotionally attracted to her and i will take it slow as there is more i gotta know bout her and so does she.


Till then....................

Start of something new

All i can say is that its a start of something new for me and my Louis Lane been with her for two days and as i said it I'm taking it slow.
Loved her so much right now missing her already ICE said I'm a lucky guy and i think I am a lucky guy.The relationship just started and this is the best part well they are bounds to have problems and it is supposed to happen and it will be in all relationships so have to go through it reahter then avoiding it.


alright today's math problem is simple just that now i haven't still revise my math and need to do practice question but gotta sleep sleep soon if not i will wake up late haha not wanting to do that haha



after canoe training and she waited for me.
On the way back home this is what happen ella that girl shouted when the mice was actually far away and that shocked me and i jumped while holding her hand and the amazing thing is that she didn't jump what an embarrassment to me haha my face away turned red and it was shameful but at least i got a sense that i can make people laugh at unexpected timing's ahaha



Till tmr oh yea having soccer again haha see ya guys....

One week of no blogging

One week no blogging believe it's true that gives you guys an idea how busy I am.....
Well the week has been a suprise to me as I someone that has a crush on me,played soccer aha and all my shots are like not in but hitting the post.


Well I have been disturbing this gurl for quite some time and firstly the class actually thought i was her boyfriend then and there starts the teasing of me and her haha well I enjoyed her company and she makes me feel a sense of comfort non then others haha well no more that is enough info is very discreet well sometimes random ppl seem to read my blog and these facts are meant to be kept inside haha.


this is the lyrics of Maybe by Jay Sean

Beep beep oh look now
There goes my phone
And once again I'm just hoping
It's a text from you

It ain't right, read your messages
Twice, thrice, four times a night it's true
Everyday I patiently wait
Feeling like a fool but I do anyway
Nothing can feel as sweet and as real
Knowing I wasn't waiting in vain

And maybe it's true
I'm caught up on you
Maybe there's a chance
That you're stuck on me too
Maybe I'm wrong, it's all in my head
Maybe we're afraid
Words we both haven't said

I'm always connected online
Hooked on facebook all the time
Hoping you've checked my profile
Just can't help wondering
Why you play it cool
But still I'm hopelessly falling for you

Every night on the phone
I'm hooked up with you
And I know you that you like it girl
All choking inside, what's in you and I
Come out and say what we're trying to hide

And maybe it's true
I'm caught up on you
Maybe there's a chance
That you're stuck on me too
Maybe I'm wrong, it's all in my head
Maybe we are waiting
Words we both haven't said

Like I really want you
I think I need you
Maybe I miss you
I’m thinking of you

And maybe it's true
I'm caught up on you
Maybe there's a chance
That you're stuck on me too
Maybe I'm wrong, it's all in my head
Maybe we are waiting
Words we both haven't said

And maybe it's true
I'm caught up on you
Maybe there's a chance
That you're stuck on me too
Maybe I'm wrong, it's all in my head
Maybe we're afraid
Words we both haven't said

Days & Days

Its been like days since i blog so damn tiring so much going through now so far so good nothing is wrong just going the right way gonna go for a job interview soon by my friends recommendations and i hope to get that job cause i need some money to get me going soon so damn broke and my mom sometimes don't have that much money to provide me so yea and also sometimes i just go with the flow.


Many stupid things happen today went to make a fool out of myself and this idiot girl went to make my shirt like loose on one side damn idiot haha and i forgot to bring my track pants so damn dumb of me so i had to lend from my uncle that is very baggy and god damn big so puffy like ronald macdonald hahaha


and after school went to this Adventure Learning Thingy it was fun as my group consist of people i know off and its was so fun our objective was like so simple make sure that we can make the required timing of 100seconds so the first few tries was like very hard as we go on we know what to be done its was simple we almost got to 80 seconds but it was too far..........
WELL that is all for the day see ya guys soon yea haha

Second day of sadness

Why sadness cause i had and argument with my mom it was my fault i got very hot tempered and lose it out on my mom which was wrong.

And now my mom is not talking to me and im too not talking to much and i plan not to so much as if i talk to her i will quarrel with her again like no one's business which is very bad as we muslim's know that heaven is at the footsteps of our mother.



I will apologize to my mom soon well she won't exactly accept after what i have done she has been through lots that i can imagine it would be huh well not all things will always be the same they will change due to environment and situation.
Hoping for me is the best



I just found out that someone like me and i know who but just that she still had someone and its impossible for me to go for her and its wrong not my type of person time is still there for me to keep waiting or just searching but my aim now is just being to do my best in subjects and bring up my grades.
I may be the only malay canoeist left in my team and don't plan to quit as its my passion i know that i don't really mix around with the clicks i just don't wanna be in the conflicts that they creates im neutral and intent to stay that way doing well is the best.
FOR training I go by one motto just do don't think you will know why when you come to a time where you are pushed to the limits you will know

Start of week 4 was a bomb

What can i say the class was really a blast when i started so this is what happen today.....NO body's birthday but just a typical day.



Started out boring cause its Monday BLUES who the hell wanna be in a good mood unless you drink like Naughty G plus Redbull unlikely no one did haha was updating kenneth PSP when suddenly it just hut off i thought it crash but it didn't luckily and tomorrow i need to upgrade his PSP manually.


After class we took some pictures of the classmates enjoys...............=)

Start of week three

Start of the third week so great well not so but it is so far haha
went to class like early today lucky the faci is ok today but there is this extra faci in class today to do an inspection on our behavior in class and the way we organize things.
damn stupid ler haha i like slept in class twice so then i heard the shutter from Ming Min's phone what a close up shot ahha but at all it was funny try not to sleep again tmr haha.


First break gone and zoan took a picture with me and the one of the classmates took a class picture of us isn't it great haha best right so photogenic =D have to see to believe it.Second break and over and we look at this video of Kumar making a stand up comedy it was hilarious and we couldn't stop laughing it was damn funny...Syafiq wanted to go for canoe and i told him to join next year when it is like more opportunities for him so that he won't be kick ed out if he wants to go for canoe..............???


I almost overslept but lucky didn't miss the training my stomach wanted to clear the extra baggage but didn't had time so now at home no feeling maybe tomorrow morning but a bit too much info haha its cool then while doing the 4 sets of 800m the girls from other Poly's came to my astonishment they were more pretty than our RP haha gazing at them well we are guys no point hiding that.............DUH!!!
after training some of my mates lost their valuables it was sad and one actually lost her Ipod sda case they must be crying now but things happen 4 a reason no doubt.


well till tmr guys good luck to the POLITE competitors and cheer up for my fellow mates that lost their stuffs.........=)

Last day of 2nd week

Left Danish Center me Right is that Zoan that calls me bitch

Last day of second week and things start to get even better some ppl just don't wanna be in class and the rest start to bond even better everyday so its a good start of the second week
lots happen in the second week lots lots but didn't have enough time to actually write about it cause did lots of training too much in the class concentrating and its been better as in i did better for school now except math just the second week of the subject i have a problem its a bit hard and i slept through one 6P slide its sad.....=(


Iryana and Me


well i will just give you guys pictures of what happen o much to describe and too little to give but still i will upload what is left of the pictures oh yea and there is this girl zoan that calls me bitch all the time haha well idiot her hahaha
For farah's bday celebration i got smash in the face with the oily cake damn disgusting ARGH!!!!! but still a good thing that our class bond that good in just 2 weeks.

Face gets smash by birthday girl's cake

The best class I ever had

This Semester of the Year is my best year so far for two weeks my class has been a funny ass class seriously i loved it.
Not all the classmates that am close but some and that some is like one and the rest is just damn fun seriously super fun no fight just the funny and jokes kinda class but when we are serious we really get to work we work as a class and as a team unity haha.


Oh yea that zoinx girls always calls me a bitch ass ahah well yes I am a bitch but not her bitch for sure haha well today's lesson is really boring during the part of the presentation really it sucks well Oh yea I got A but downgraded cause I was late like for 2 mins faci really strict maybe she got some issues must talk to us faci.


goin off now have lots of stuff to do must not miss it see ya guys tmr ahaa.

Superday

Not really a super day but I wish it could be.
Well just like any other day it was normal and the same people didn't come what can I say they just don't wanna be in the clan...........


My team today was missing one person and it is Aytie it was told by her friend that she was sick and I thought so when I saw her,then she showed me her tongue piercing it was gruesome sight when looking at the blood still flowing out YUCKS....................

Tomorrow I am in the team with Danish haha Wednesday is the Farah Diyana Bday must celebrate but not in a sense that threw her to the pond ar haha not right just maybe some daring game or some sort like that that gurl is turning LEGAL this wed so late.........................


Oh yea my voice is gonna be gone soon like sore throat all the way since last Sunday felt damn sick arr......................





Have a girlfriend is a headache but without them we can't survive it's true fact but still have to be that way having them in your ARMS is a gift don't abuse it you must be a jerk for breaking up with her..........SERIOUSLY
But without them your life is easier as in you can just spend yourself on whatever shit you want without them commenting on every single thing............Just that sometimes you need a person to talk to and your family not so comfortable and usually ends up in an argument...WRONG choice friends only support you not help you haha cause they have their own problems to take care of why must they be in your business haha

So just have a girlfriend and savor her don't let go its stupid of you the trick to withstand a long relationship is not to ask much and trusting each other

1.....Ask to much makes you having nothing to ask in the near future which result in BORING
2......Just trust your partner but to an extent just be a suspicious at times not all the time its DUMB
3....Listen when she talk and listen to the main points cause that is important best if you can summarize the story if not You're DEAD...they need emotional support at times but GUYS are really good at this than gurls cause they break down easily.
4.....Don't ever mention anything from you past experience of what you do to your GF they are not interested at all be focus on them not others.


That's all for today nothing else talk too much.

What comes around goes around

Welcome me back to this place i call my diary haha long since i blog like few days ago was so busy haha
oh yea from wednesday till today i was so caught up with the things until i got no time and the best thing is that me class is so fun every day will have at least good laugh and very unforgettable haha



Up till today oh yea today is actually the early celebration of Danish Bday and the first thing we did was dragging him to the handicapped toilet and shower his hair so that was the first trick haha
the second was celebrating his Bday with cake and all lastly at South Foodcourt we carried him from the second floor and dragged him to the pond and threw him there haha its was a classic moment but the Singh security spoiled the fun and we ran away so quickly and met up in class haha finally


Lastly I forgot to bring home me charger no im using me battery and its going flat soon in like 20 mins lucky the adapter is with Lyn and she stays very near haha

okok gtta go my batt has signal a red saying i need to charge haha till next time. OH yea go to me facebook and the videos to see the Bday bash we gave to Danish haha gotta go till next time

Second is best

What I mean by second is best
School with my new class is best met with one new class mate she wasn't in class yesterday but she left early.
oh yea its was a bomb today in class more jokes flying around and i mega burned a girl with her question but i ended with a joke so she won't fell awkward.


The faci today was a malay guy started off great but the more he went it became boring and most of people just started went to sleep even ME hahha sadly yes second day and i was distracted by email and facebook haha must get A for daily grade man ahhaa

Presentation was good and it was a blast to be in a team of malays oh yea my class got lots of people of my race haiz......sian ahaha
the talk with captain is cancel fuck so last min do they always do things in that way no offense but have to be earlier haha well just have to deal with it no complains....=) ONLY SMILES
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just waiting for tmr and yea canoe training for tmr but its water hahaha
my body is getting bigger haiya only must get abs still developing......6 months already =)

New Semester New Class

What is it like being in the new class well it felt the same as i knew some of the kids in my class
not really a surprise that i want but still........


One thing good is that my group makes the most noise today and the best thing is its really fun cause its the way to start a good day in a new semester actually really i have nothing much to say for today cause its just the first day and we will have to see soon ahaha


Oh yea lots of ppl that i know of in the same level as me so much fun and most of them are either canoeist or just my peers ahahhaha

Going to sleep now and awaiting for tomorrow don't wanna be caught sleeping in class again like the last semester it really sucks
AIM FOR THIS SEMESTER:DO well in grades to go for canoe competition.......=)

What has happen is up to you to decide....

It's really true what happens is up to you to decide if you think it is incorrect tell me
but not all things is at your decision only the practical things you do
like example harsh words you say,bad grades you get for school and the attitude towards others...
these things are just the thing that is cause by you and I'm not only pointing fingers at you but even me.


We are humans not angels or GOD we make mistakes and learn from it today is the past and should not be brought tomorrow its not a good thing.
What happens in the past stays there is nothing you can change but you can change for the better in the future.


I too have a lot to learn and change what i saw today is a talk change my point of thinking nothing is impossible put your heart and soul in something it can be done but of course it must be logical.


Nothing last forever look for a better day tomorrow and improve on it.

Disappointment

UT3 just came out.....

Disappointment to me thought that i could do better in the last UT but still I ain't sad.
What's the stress for its over the start of the new semester is coming and I'm looking forward to it...=D

But one thing is for certain nothing can always go your way.
Calculated my GPA and it's bad really bad like I didn't even hit a 2 pointer so I forget bout it and hardly can go for any competition in canoe just buck up for the second sem to get my chance yea that's it now is the 25 of September time 2:30am and going to sleep soon coach is coming back tomorrow from Portugal and gonna have a tough training gotta buck up.

What is happening??

Good question to start off....I mean really what is happening to the Team and to the people in CANOE.
Might be that some people pisses me off during training and its the same people.I don't really have a bond with some people it's not their fault just that there is nothing to talk about and maybe we are not on the same frequency........??

And some just aren't happy about the smallest things I won't name anyone cause it might start a fight just keeping a distance between them...Now i get to see the real them and they get to see the real me...............Wondering what will happen in the near future just hope that there isn't any more arguments or misunderstandings among each other.
It ain't worth the time,the breath or the saliva SERIOUSLY it ain't
you must be an idiot for doing that but you must have your reason.....
What the fuck am I talking about????Half the time I don't even know


Yea I am a kukoo person but that's just me
A little advice for me and others that are reading this...
If you are in a sport be it anything....WHEN YOU have a PROBLEM just keep it to yourself and forget about it the next day cause everyday is a new day and no point talking to people about it.....Seriously it will just get worst from there cause they will spread around those info as rumors and they will make it up trust me been there hate that.............
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Left 4 Dicks

Damn funny day and I haven't had this fun since had too much training for a month haha
well day after day after day its all canoe training so its shack but enjoyable at times.
So after training we went to Plaza Singapura to exchange my Starhub setup box remote,


The damn remote just won't connect to the Box so yea it was a fast exchange then we ate at the Kopitiam and initially wanted to go and watch movie but since there nothing to watch at the moment so we just went to play arcade game and it was fun spent a little money there and lastly while walking home decided to play L4D.


The platoon guy(David) paid for us and we played for about an hour or so it was fun taking a change to becoming the infected and humans and it was damn funny haha took turns and the worst thing is that we were the noisiest LAN gamers there shouted and scolded plus JONAH shouted like one girl after being attack by an infected thing haha laugh my ass off damn it was fun only if we had the chance to play again but this time we will bring the whole team there haha and see how it goes haha bring the house down

The wait is over

The wait is over Raya is here and all the sins has will be forgiven.
That's what i did for the morning of Syawal and it felt like a burden has been lifted.

After the morning raya prayers went to help out the mosque in becoming the photographer taking pics of those eating in the auditorium then a smoking session....long time since i smoke but it was nice feeling.
Alright alright just went out with my family to a few houses and I wasn't expecting any money from the cousin's side but since they give I can't reject ay!! its rude so I just took it haha.

Fun in the first day with my whole family there is just pics of my cousins and me so just take a look at them nothing really much but just to spread the news.
But still have to pay for those days i didn't fast well.....do it after the one month haha still got time
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4 Guys on a Stick

How to define 4 guys on a stick
its Jon Ang,Choo,Winson and Me on a Liang Jin K4
so we capsize like mad and finally we went out but still we don't have the balance yet.
We will take it step by step nothing to be afraid of just the part where everyone in the boat is not keeping their ass still moving and tilting the boat that makes us capsize hard to counter when everyone is already 45 degree angle its hard but ok ok.

Enough of us guys the gurls were good at balancing and they went out after a few capsize so yea they have a better balance.Well its good to have a better person starting first so they slower ones can catch up faster and go on to do better.So it's 4 guys on a stick.

So I didn't fast today it was because too much water goes into my nose and my head was fully submerged in water when I capsize.................STUPID REASON AY!!!
but what the heck anyways broken 3 out of 29/30 days of fasting so its a record but next year won't be that simple as its gonna get tougher with trainings.
So after training went back to my secondary school to visit someone that I miss and been wanting to visit but had no time she was suprise but happy and got her number and going to her house soon for RAYA VISIT...........yes $$$

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Hold on to the last second don't let go
It's gonna be worth it

I have been tired for quite a while now doing all sorts of exercise and putting me into all sorts of pressure.
And i agree it will all be worth it soon so yesterday's optional training was intense with all the emotions running around.
400 was the number of push ups we did and one thing I can say is that we have all improved since the first day even though we didn't see it for ourselves.


And yea we have all our issues even me I don't lie all have issues and its only you who can just keep your mouth shut and just do it what you are suppose to do.
At the end of the day the one who benefit is me not you.
Good lesson to learn from indeed........


Didn't go for training today very tired and i need the rest but no matter what i need to get ready for the selection i have to go all out and Monday is the day to start afresh as in like really train hard and go all out two weeks of intense training before POLITE.

Tired Tired Tired

Yes me again well it has been a few days i haven't blog so damn bored now its 6:29am in the morning and the 8th of Sept i got to pay my fine by today and the worst thing is that i got a CE point deducted cause of not attending a course that's shitty man............Life's boring...........

But luckily I have vanoe to keep me occupied i miss a training session so what the hell NEED rest man to many stuffs to take care of and since the fasting month I;m all busy with training and mosque activities HEY NEEDED THE REST so got it and enjoyed it.

okok just went to GEYLANG not to the lorong but to the market and BAZAAR to buy me a baju kurung bought one new one every single year so yea i don't mind the colour as long as it nice upon my mom's eyes I'm cool with it =D oh yea and its cheap cheap cheap like $59 dollars YEEEHH!!!!!!!!!!
Bought food to eat and enjoyed the rest of the evening with family hard to get to spent quality time with my mom and sis since my mom is working and I'm always busy and rarely at home............

Well I gotta shower soon its going to be 7 in the morning in a couple of minutes and training starts at 9am sharp plus I can't be late no more time is of the essence.

The boy is finally 19

Finally I'm 19 and it fells so good and tomorrow is the team lunch for the coach ok ok if they remember my birthday it will be my celebration haha
time has pass and all day we did was sprint sets and tell you i feel damn tired and my balance in K2 still needs work for sure


Life's not that hard ran 3 sets of 800 meter and almost broken my fast but still maintain haha best
and most guys are gonna get kick out cause there are just too many people in canoe and not enough boats to accommodate all but still a big number is good the biggest we had
well nothing to say tomorrow is a challenging day and will be offline till Sunday cause have Ramadhan business

TOO HECTIC

Nowdays life is just very hectic and too many trainings during the holidays
yesterday was my bad day I got fine $20 bucks for under payment of bus fair
this sucks and have to pay within two weeks of not......DIE!!!!!!



Got into K boats today K2 actually unexpectedly my partner was Winson and its was fun even though the balance wasn't there but still best.
Well and we have 3 new Sea paddlers and they are enthusiastic about it so i will actually bow to them for being so brave cause from what I heard training from that boat is very difficult and tough
Oh yea soon enough more of the people here are gonna get cut for one reason is that there are just too many people in this IG


Time to sleep cause there is training tomorrow and coach fair well lunch is this Saturday which falls on the DAY OF MY BIRTH......

Hey guys long time since my time is occupied with all the trainings and fasting plus helping at different mosque...........haha well now days I am all occupied.


Went for training today but i feel so damn tired maybe I didn't get enough sleep so I almost feel to the ground but luckily I have a strong will to go for POLITE that's what important to me and win a medal no matter what it takes.Everyone was good to me thanks guys for the support I appreciate it love you guys(Sounds GAY)no matter..........

Three days not checking up on my email and i have like two dozen exactly hahaha love to helped out at mosque especially at this time of the month all we MUSLIMS can get is the light from ALLAH for helping the ones in need.Few weeks left before selection for POLITE I hope I will be in the list and I will make sure I WIN a GOLD Medal for the team and MYSELF make my mom proud and let her know the son is not going for training and coming back late for nothing.......................


Till I see you guys the next time choaz and thanks for all the memories that E36R had gave us teh Happy,Sad,Laughter and Craziness till we see you again on the reunion...IF THERE IS

MISS YOU E36R PEEPS







Last day of the SEMESTER what more can i say............enjoy enjoy enjoy well i will some times have a look back at my class and remember the good times and laughter we had................15 weeks of lesson,laughter,throwing of chairs and the tears that had been flowing down the cheeks........Even still I haven't ge the timt to go out and enjoy their fun times but for me 15 weeks of seeing their faces whether its ugly,haggat,unbath and RAW still those are the faces i will remember since this is the first class in my 6 months on poly here are some of the pictures for six months

Today the last day of the week and the last lesson for SCIENCE yeah!!!



Funny day but still lesson goes on as per normal and the good thing is that finally the lesson easy to understand but it took me a while longer haha well gotta go soon and take some gifts from our class MENTOR MR Eric Goh and having math revision later,have to pass UT 3 and not fail studying tonight and no more playing


1 Star course is this Sunday and have to be at Kallang(SCF)Singapore Canoe Federation haha 8:45am in the morning and luckily there is a straight bus to the place loved where i stay and today I'm talking to my mom and apologizing to her for what I have said and done and i don't want it to happen again.


OH yar a TRIVIA quesiton why do gurls do this action in all the pictures??Is it a trend? reply at my post haha this is just what we took just now.........hahaha

Life ain't so sweet there's always sour moments
Experiencing the ups and downs
Never look back at the bad memories look towards the future
Do not always follow the flow it will lead you nowhere
Plan your next move and go for it don't give up
Endure for a moment life is always good after experiencing the worst
Remember that it is always MIND over BODY
If your mind is strong it can overcome the greatest obstacles
Do not let emotions take over and let things pass by as a small glitch

The worst that could happen to me is just getting started...............just got kick out of the house for arriving late at home because my canoe training finish late.....


You know what its no use talking bout this bullshit no ones gives a shit they will say what the FUCK this guy's mom is too strict...........so old and still no freedom just a little bit.


What happen is already gone now staying with my grandparents and have to find a job straight away no money...............got house but not going be hoping money from them they are old and they need that money for their old days now today main focus is just getting through the day and tmr must must must find a freaking job to support myself.............................


HOW AM I GONNA DO IT I"M NOT SURE HOPE THAT PATH IS SHOWN TO ME

YOU GUYS KNOW WHAT??????????????????


I PASS MY SECOND UT hahahahhahaha


It is a good feeling and i like it hahaha did better than my first which is damn bad most E's and D's plus 1 F's.So the new UT grade was like C's and D+ its definitely better.I gotta do better for my 3rd and final UT which coming in a while like one week from now haha




Oh yea and this is my pics from the national day training haha it took FARRAH a long time to upload it haha and the best thing is that she came in the male toilet just to take the picture for us ahha enjoy.........oh yar look at the tan line damn black......

TRAIN,TRAIN,TRAIN now the timing's and schedule for my canoe training's are like every day except on friday....................tired.(Miss yesterday's training)

Mon:8:45am(Land) Missed
Tues:4:30pm(Land)
Wed:4:30pm(Water)
Thurs:4:30pm(Land)
Sat:8:30am(Water)
Sun:8:30am(Water)

Damn tired damn sleepy and still have to do work and train no time for friends and revision for UT 3.I just hope I can make it........Today's lesson making a LOGO hahaha well its about time to rest and no think too much...........FINALLY.



Gotta go now have presentation to do to get an A my aim for the last week of lesson........

HEY HEY HEY I finally pass my cognitive test yes I like haha
the training today was good all went well and i got a ride on two different motorbike one is from my grandfather cause scared late second is from BENEDICT just to Yishun stadium so damn near haha...lazy to walk then went to eat so damn hungry i seriously drank alot ar like damn alot...



HHAHHAHA celebrating the nation's bday and also my grandfather plus my baby girl cousin on the same day actually one day earlier only haha.........went home slept damn long and did my admin work ahaha well now talking to two to three ppl all webcam i show you and look at KELROY's picture damn diff...OH yar all talking to me at the same time haha multi tasking see can handle a not ahha



Wah the training for mext week damn shack all week except friday like specially retarded man hahaha no rest bloody hell but for POLITE anything goes i think its a good motor for juniors "ANYTHING GOES" okok let you guys take a look at this pics of the day haha

Till the next update..............retarded DEE

Dude i was like damn sleepy today in class slept during the middle of the second meeting.I was all the way sleeping for these week too tired and had no time to concentrate on class.

GOOD NEWS I got D+ for my communication and it was better than the last time that i did it haha...............now just stress for my Communication the grades are just very sad and not a good choice of subject to repeat.................

OH!!! and some told me they had a crush on me just a lil while haha well after my hair cut all took notice WTH I'm still the same but still no harm in that NO plaboy here haha........=) till later on

Today was such a suprise day communication was fun at last with a skit but since this was our first so we didn't do that well but it did crank people up for a while ahhaha..............training was not that bad......................


We as the juniors did pretty well as in not that much hassle but i still need to improve on my temper as in i always have the tendency to scold people and just get very angry at times that can be controlled well after training me and all my other friends went to Causeway point and just relax for a while..

Farrah why can't you believe that Adib and you are a matching couple hahaha just check out the pics haha chaoz..................

Two weeks to the end of the term in school............the class is not like what it was before but still have to be because of some unforseen circumstances.But what the hell I don't even care what I know is that i can survive in that class for two more weeks........


Well everybody was practically shock because of my sudden haircut some say i look neater.some said i have that loan shark look and some even worst MAFIA....wha tever it is my hair is the main attraction of the day and even tomorrow for training its gonna be shocking but what the hell........

Got a crush on this gurl in my friends class but I'm just too busy with my canoe and all so I just don't think I can fully commit in this but still if i had the chance i will go for it I mean the relationship......but only time will tell

The before

Just yesterday
Finally after more than 6 months of long and curly and misinterpreted gurl i finally cut mine and i feel happy well now my blog has a problem can't edit my link and also can't delete music its really annoying well now i'm gonna show you guys the before and after pics of my picture haha.................
Today.........after more than 6 months